vomit.

sooo its an unusually rainy day here in LA

i think i have seasonal depression

well rather daily weather depression i guess?

that doesn't really make much sense either

i'm too tired to think straight right now

but my legs and chest are sore? strange..

i went to starbucks and the woman was a TOTAL bitch to me

probably just jealous of mah hot bod.

but no really i probably wont get hired now she hated me for whatever reason

and all i wanted today was mexican food and matt refused to go get it with me

but oh wait!

he came home with leftovers from a MEXICAN RESTAURANT

like ARE YOU FRIGGIN KIDDING ME?!

he hates me.. clearly

but his friend felt bad for me since they went without me

at least someone has a heart

i'll remember this when your birthday and hanukkah roll around matt!

i want to puke

im not sure why

it just feels like it may happen in the very near future

i' ve had strange stomach issues for a while now. like months

and of course my first assumption was stomach cancer

i literally could not keep anything down at all

i lost so much weight

which i wouldn't necessarily say is a bad thing

but anyways thats besides the point

so i went to my doctor and she ran tests thinking maybe it was one of the following:

ulcers, no

gastritis, no

diabetes, no

bleeding in my stomach lining, no

and so on

so of course im still thinking whoa i totally do have cancer

and i began panning out everything i'd want to do in my final years

take off and travel the world 

and that was honestly as far as i got in my planning

i got side tracked or something

and after months of bullshit tests, blood work, co pays and other crap i finally went to an allergist

and they determined i have various food allergies

like of course

duh

whatever. 

fuck.